To be honest, I could literally write a whole novel on self undermining, cause my whole life I did that. And I didn’t even know I was my own enemy for a veeery long time. But, hey, when you are oblivious, it’s kind of ok (or at least you think it is). The big issues being when your awareness gets to the level when you realise you self-inflict pain, doubts and garbage in your own little mind – and you cannot stop it.
And just when I thought I overcame my limits, new challenges arise. It is incredible how attached we become to our stuff, our life as it was and how uncomfortable a simple change, like quitting an apartment, becomes. So this is a post to let you know that, yes, when it comes to change, no matter how big or how small…. IT IS OK to be afraid and feel uncomfortable.
Everything happens so fast! I close my eyes and try to connect with my thoughts and keep calm. If I die in this flight, will I die happy? I kept on asking myself while everyone around seems to lose it. As in a dream, I hear the yelling from the passengers around and I can clearly feel through my skin the fear in the air. We literally jump from our chairs and my thoughts start turning faster and faster, like time is compressing…. and few lessons start emerging.
In the English dictionary, patience is defined as “the capacity to accept or tolerate delay, problems, or suffering without becoming annoyed or anxious”. In real life…. patience is that thing that brings things to fruition. But, as with everything in life, there is always a thin line between being stubborn and not patient enough, giving up too soon and continuing on a path that doesn’t feel good. So here comes the big question: how can I strike the balance?