Why did I choose to quit my job

Happiness and freedom are a matter of choice
Happiness and freedom are a matter of choice
Six months ago, I embarked into one of the most thrilling experiences of my life. I dropped the Eurocrat badge and decided to radically change the way I live. From a European public servant, I became a jobless individual, looking for something meaningful.

Exactly six months ago, I embarked into one of the most thrilling experiences of my life. I dropped the Eurocrat badge and decided to radically change the way I live. From a European public servant, I became a jobless individual, looking for something meaningful. It turns out the actual step is not too difficult to take, you just need some courage. The difficult part is what comes next :).

I honestly feel like a six-months-old baby caught up in the body of a 30-something woman. Still learning to make the first steps into the real world, learning how to breathe, how to live with no schedule, no boss and no… pay slips. 🙂 Living without the safety net gives you a specific understanding towards life, one that I didn’t really know about when taking the decision to make a switch.

Sometimes is tough, sometimes uplifting. Sometimes is gets really really lonely out there, sometimes too crowded… I worked my whole life as an employee and all of a sudden I had to deal with the world of “free-lancing“, full of big dreams, low pays, rejection & forgetfulness.

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But still… Why did I give up the comfort of a well-paid job, the social status and pride that comes with that?! (and, funny enough, I loved my job and the tasks, but hated my life).

Here are few small personal reasons for the big change:

Because I just know deep inside there is more to life that working in an office for the next 35 years.

Because a decade in the corporate environment slowly killed my creative outbursts.

Because my dream is to travel the world and I am too young to give that up.

Dreams

Because I didn’t recognize myself anymore in the environment I was working and living. So I had to change.

Because I wanted to challenge my survival instincts.

Because I was going downhill: smoked excessively, drank excessively, didn’t exercise and was constantly depressed.

Because I realised career is not everything (better later than never, right?!).

Because I simply feel I needed more time for myself and week-ends were not enough any longer.

Because I was finally able to shut down the logical part of myself and leave for once the heart to speak up.

Because one day, I just felt another “calling“…

travel

Did I change everything?

Hell, no! I am not that courageous :). Mind me, I didn’t really become one of those amazing people with a backpack and a one-way-ticket (although many times when I travelled I didn’t know when I will get back home). I love the have a place to call “home”, I love to spend “me time” in the intimacy of my place.

I still live in Brussels and I love this city more and more. It is well connected, with great life-style and a certain familiarity that I cannot part myself from.

But everything comes with a price.

Between the glory of a new life, the decisions I have to make daily, the sleepless nights and totally new situations, sometimes I get the feeling I am going down the Rabbit Hole and feel further and further away from the world, as I knew it in the past 30 years.

But then here come all the good things

The travels and all the amazing people, places and experiences I get to have every day.

The late mornings, when you smell the coffee in the quietness of your apartment and feel grateful for being in your PJs at 10:00 am.

they call it morning because it is meant to be spent at ease

The last minute tickets and plans and destinations.

The moments when you can just go and help a sick friend during a workday.

The days you just walk around the city.

And so many other things for which I feel blessed and grateful!

I got no idea where the wind of life will take me in another six months. And, to be honest, it doesn’t matter. I lived way too much in the past, looking back.

Then I wasted too much time wondering what the future will be like.

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At the end of the day…. the present is the only one that matters.

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If you enjoyed this, then here is an article on the decision-making process I was going through few months ago.

1 Comment

  • Nice article Madalina it is good you dropped out of a lifestyle that did not suit you when you are still young. Wish you the very best! Kedidia

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